What makes me unhappy?

if we can cope, we are blessed. By Allah's permission, we can tolerate that disappointment.

         Today is the tenth day in January 2018. in the hijri calendar, it is now the 23rd 'Rabi al Awaal'. Many things I really want to post on this blog. But, today, I want to write down things that make me feel moody, unhappy, and feel the need of myself to calm down. Actually, I do not need to bother. I just ignore the things that are not important, which makes me unhappy. But, that does not solve the problem. Positive thinking does have to, but it's not enough. Today, I feel, I lost my confidence to some friends. Yes, I think, I can not continue the friendship with some friends. In fact, I can not trust those whom I used to call 'good friends'. But, that's the friend who lied to me from behind. Am I going to be angry? Actually, I'm not angry. I'm just disappointed. But, disappointed higher level of the word angry. If anger can be expressed, but disappointment only makes us be silent and go away. Well, I chose to be quiet and stay away.

It's Okey Lajma :)

               Actually, I write to calm myself. I want positive thoughts to spread to me until I finish this writing. I need 'ikhlas' to forgive others, lies of others, also the pretense of others who turned out to stab me in the back. I should forgive lies and realize that no man is perfect. I want to forgive. But, the more I want to forgive and try to relax. 'they' repeat the same mistake so i like cheated and just as terminal to apologize. Then, the mistakes happen again and again, and when they apologize, I have to and should say, yes ... I'm fine.

            But today, I have to say one thing and take one thing. Sometimes, good people feel bored with their goodness. The biggest challenge is forgiving and trying to forgive. Heemm .... I want to draw my breath and want to honestly ask myself, am I ready to forgive?

I remember Ustad's words in his lecture. Ustad said if we still interact with humans, then there must be a sense of disappointment. If we still interact with humans, we will definitely experience heartache. But, if we can cope, we are blessed. Insyaa Allah, by Allah's permission, we can tolerate that disappointment.